Tml parents come back le. So fast ~.~
Slept at their room these 2nights.. Coz my room always can't get into slp.. Dunoo izzit my room got electrical applicants (their's dun hav). But their room is more spacious n quiet.. Mine is beside highway and got tables,shelves around my bed.
Haha realised that out of 24hour a day, i never step out of my room for more than 10mins each time. Only step out to refill water, go toilet n cook maggie. I do everything in my room, tv, computer, read magazine, eat, drink... I guess next time round if i no $, i can rent a room instead of buying/renting a flat..
Slept at 6am yesterday.. The feeling is very great.. No matter how loud is my tv, how late i sleep, or whatever.. no one will be there to nag nag nag or disturb me.
Pf, hs n bel came my hse today. Felt quite paiseh coz it's raining heavily.. Coz people will not want to go out on rainy days.. They could stay at home comfortably or sleep later.. They helped me design the project that i really dunno how to make it.. Thanks a lot.. i'm really an craft idiot. Hope i won't destroy the whole design when i get my hands on to make it.
Then we went bedok for dinner, bought a bag at the pasar malam n SHE concert dvd @ TS.
Really thanks very much for companying me huh.. and sorry for the trouble.
Next is find a day to go out with e rest to buy *something :p*, then think some people wanna go bugis buy t-shirts too.. Wonder if i should get myself a decent wallet, but can't find a satisfying one. What abt a $10 QQ Bear temporary?? LOL!!! No way.
Most important thing is to make a trip to SpotLight as soon as possible. Gotta grab the neccessary items.. And i mentioned wrong.. is 4projects.. haha
Got to make a timetable with flh pictures.. either integrate the timetable into a wallpaper's empty space or just a picture of them on top and timetable below.. Then find a day go back with e rest to print it in school.. Free colour ink sia.. Think everyone want to print their own designated timetable too.
Wonder if i should make the mini-timetable for everyone again this sem. Majority uses it sia.. i mean my yr1 classmates. But my own friends find it ugly n not suitable for them. I also duno if i'm making it for myself coz i dun have transparent card holder now.. I just want it becoz sometimes last min wanna see e room desparately then if take out file from bag very mafan la. Maybe i'll still make one to put in my wallet ba.
Sometimes i really have the rush of getting out of the house this instance and go to the top of the building and jump down. I really have.. this rush.. this chong dong.. oftenly.. I even climbed up the stairs but i always back out halfway.. I'm really the burden of my parents. My mom said honestly to her friends that she will not give birth if she can choose again. I agree. If i'm died, they won't have to work so hard to pay for my sch fees n expenses. They don't even have any $ left for themselves if anything were to happen suddenly. I'm someone who faces the reality very much. I'm very clear that my parents will be a heavy burden for me in future. I don't have siblings or other relatives to turn to. My family only just 3of us. I alone will have to earn $ to support both of them.. And if they fall sick when they're old.. I will be a slave for $. Therefore i wished that i will be died any second now.. I don't wanna face anymore life. Life is just so meaningless. Born > Study > Love? > Work > Marriage? > Children? > Die. This is just life.. Worse thing is i don't believe in love at all. And more n more people who denied my thinking of love in the past come to agree with me now. I mean, it's a reality that we have to face. Everyone will get to know the truth in future. So God, just take me away as soon as possible. I'm desparate to go to heaven. What's the meaning of life? So what if we got love, got happiness? Life is going to end sooner or later one day. We study because everyone studies, we work because everyone works, we sleep because everyone sleeps, we get into a relationship because everyone else does, we get married because everyone gets married, we give birth because everyone else gives birth, we die because everyone has to die. What's the meaning of it? Seriously, a person will remember the unhappiness of a death MORE often than the happiness that the person brings it to us. It's true. Mayday said that their album is 为爱而生，为爱而死. I can agree with 为爱而死. But not the other one. I just think tat i'm born to wait for death. That's all. Living day by day is just wasting time. When is my death coming. It's not my emo-day or i'm suddenly being emo again. This thought has been in my brain each and every day. Just that i don't blog it out everyday lol..
