How can i stop myself from having a glimpse of hope? This glimpse of hope will only make me fall into world of impossible and fantasy.. Then everyday when the truth comes, it'll only cut my wounds deeper.. Is it impossible for human to completely forget and put down something? Just that human will never ever get satisfied, is it that i will never succeed in not having any bit of hope? I don't want this hope.. I don't want this kinda 期待... Because i know i will only be disappointed. But i juz can't control..

Listened to MLB whole album's song for 5times!! Yes! Every song on the album i listened 5times.. Only one word to say--- NICE!!! I'm hooked to their songs sia.. Esp 我为什么还爱你.. But every song of them are nice sia.. Took me 3hours to search for a new blogskin.. Yes, 3hours!!! From 7pm till 10++.. It's not that i wanna find an extremely nice or special skin.. In fact, the ones i chosen was not very nice and not special. What i want is the meaning of the blog, and most importantly the feel. I search by typing a keyword, then it'll return me over 100 skins for a keyword, then i'll open each and every one to preview.. I searched total of 5 keywords today.. That explains why i took so long isn't it? CHosen some but still not very satisfying so next time then change ba.

Wahaha regarding the 'big project' that i mentioned.. I wonder if there's any use if i made it. But anyway i've stopped the production for the time being coz no time... It's really a big project to me lar.. Lots of things to research, learn and make before i can produce the final product. Well, coz my resources are reali damn super limited.. So i am stucked in between and dunno how to get resources and what resources to get. DUH!

Now i juz hope i got the time n effort to study for tax n AA upcoming test. Tax i wanna pull up lei coz i've got a D for my mid-sem! But everything seems hard and i dunno y i reali have no time to study anything.

In the end never stayed till 9pm in school today.. But abit no diff la.. Coz b4 Yu Bai repeat is Let's Shoot 3's repeat ma.. Now that i dun nid to stay up to watch Let's Shoot 3, but i still nid to watch Yu Bai repeat! Therefore no diff. Anyway today's Yu Bai is LIVE but the guest is SELINA'S SISTER!! Haha..
Well, *MAYBE* i could do AA tut n Tax remedial's tut while waiting for Yu Bai? Probability that i'll do is erm.. 1/10? Haha..

I realise i got alot of things to blog leh. Everyday post entry then very long entry one. I'm someone who will go everyone's blogs EVERYDAY, even idols' blogs.. But most of e people update once or twice per week only.. Eg Ya Lun, few mths never post alr but i still go his blog EVERYDAY de lar..
So to me, my blog is not consider blogging very fast le coz i everyday read de ma.. But i think to other people my blog very fast then i believe people always missed my entries de lor.. Haha..

Expert says that blogging will alow people to relieve stresss leh coz u write out mar. That explains why i got so many blogs coz some things i can blog here, those super truthful super blunt super deep thoughts which people can't accept, i can blog at other places ma.. Relieve stress u know~ Haha..

Every thurs i will late for tax lecture.. Sometimes it's not purposely de lor.. I can't control myself ma.. Juz like today morning.. i woke up @ 7am, but i was late for 9am's lecture. Why? I woke up at 7am everyday to tune into 93.3.. Then onli thurs 9am lesson is lecture so never take attendance ma. I keep telling myself 'ok, after this song off it n go out', but i always can't stop n continue to listen listen.. Can't get away ma.. Love 7am's program very much..
Then e last song i listened today was A Mei's Ting Hai ma.. [听~ 海哭的声音. 叹惜着谁又被伤了心,却还不清醒. '一定不是我 至少我很冷静', 可是泪水 就连泪水也都不相信. 听~ 海哭的声音 这片海未免也太多情,悲泣到天明...], then 噼里啪啦 ma, not the weather.. Then muz wait everything back to normal then can step out of e hse..

Today i kept telling myself to 放开，放手.. There's this sentence which says 要拿得起，放得下 ma.. Guess there's nth everyone can do anymore to rectify the past liao. A lot of things to put down sia.. Not juz 1.. not juz 2.. Everything goes haywire, some even without me knowing and the personS till now still dunno la. They won't realise it de la.
Jia you ba, isophia.. There's one thing for sure.. I'm shifting myself to the side.