juz back from e hospital. someone in e church is being admitted.. normally i won't go n visit ppl in e hospital unless they're old folks de. esp this is so late.. went over at 9++, came back at 11++. this person is becoz.. erm. i think in church, other than my parents n the old folks, i talk to him e most le ba. church got lots n lots n lots of youths.. but i never talk to them de. but this adult.. haha.. maybe he got play Maple oso ba..
dunno leh.. if i'm together with a lot of youths.. i'll feel very.. dunno how to say. dun want to talk to them or become friends with them. weird huh? one reason is becoz not ready to make new friends yet.. dun hav e time or extra space for new friends. haven tidy up my own brain n heart.
i dun care how other people think of me at this stage anymore. i juz don't have the extra effort or energy to go n make new friends or maintain new relationships. be it wanna classify me as very bad be it wanna classify me as super damn dao, which i purposely made myself seem to be like that in front of other people.
i dunno when i'll be ready. but i dun wan to deceive myself or other people whereby i'll meet them n smile but actually i dun wanna make them my friend. tat's very fake.
another reason is.. i dun think there's a need to pretend to be friend with those people whom i won't meet often (once a week) or won't meet anymore. tat's very so fake. like every week go there say HI, and talk a lot talk a lot but e rest of the 6days never contact at all.
anyway oh ya.. yew.. better don't let ur back get any injury.. super cham lar.. cannot sit for long time.. tat means cannot maple for a long time! lol!
will begin to be so busy liao. Sun- church celebrate xmas.. then go buy things.. then go rent things.. then muz clean house coz i made a lot of mess on sat after doing e failure things Mon- of coz, xmas eve. Tue- xmas. goin en's church :) Wed- proj.. go out with 2004's boss n chieh. lol.. i nearly rejected meeting boss coz i projected my experience in SIP onto him.. reali sorry abt it.. he's definitely different. after SIP, i'm so reali damn afraid of going out with working adults anymore. Thu- proj.. then got a bbq, damn long never meet up with this bunch of ppl.. think i'll feel awkward again. Fri- erm.. proj..
OMG!! NO TIME TO DO SIP REPORT AT ALL LEH.. hangmen liao.. and seriously i think i only touched 5% nia lor. hangmen..
時間好像不是可以沖淡一切的 時間固然可以沖淡感情 時間也可以沖淡怒火 但是爲什麽好像沖不淡傷痛
爲什麽有些回憶可以沖淡 有些怎麽都沖不淡? 是時間沖不淡, 還是太重要了 心就是放不下
心 越来越封闭 不敢再付出 不敢再相信世界上真的有永恒的 .....
iSophia posted @1:39 AM & welcomes u to visit here again
iSophia
♥Christian
♥Chief Events Officer (CEO)of MisChie7s
♥Likes to watch tv
♥Likes to listen to 933
♥Don't like to spend on clothes or shopping
♥Likes to share all e gd news to everyone
♥Doesn't like to be late
♥has a VERY GOOD temper
♥collects nice bottles
♥Likes to try exciting themepark games
♥a DJ in mandarin radio station
♥to learn drum
♥be able to born & live in 台灣
♥to go to San Franciso & visit Charmed's mansion
♥to try bungie jump from top of e mountain
♥live a few yrs in different countries
♥hav my own condo,with wad i wan
♥hav my own car