today morning, got one kid not feeling well ma.. then i at church is gu pi one.. i dun like to interact with ppl, i just wan to be alone with peace. then my dad put that kid beside me while i was sitting behind waiting for service time sia. then he push her chair beside me and say 'jie jie will play with you'
i looked at him with a 'WTH' face and he laugh at me and went away!
then i look at e kid, e kid look at me. then i continue to daze on my own. i dunno wad to talk to her. nth to talk to her. so just kept quiet all e way and ignored her.
Nearly let them saw me crying in e morning coz i was messaging brenda on e van. But i act sleeping haha.
Anyway my message was 965 last mth and i paid $15++ for them -.- coz now i only have 500free sms, and i pay by GIRO therefore i got 100 more free, which is 600 sms free.. Not..........enough -.-
Yesterday night i was in e toilet, then suddenly my ears slowly cannot hear anything, and my eyes started to black out slowly.. then i sat on e floor immediately but it didnt go away and it's getting darker and darker.
So i faster get out, my parents was sleeping, my mom was still reminding me to off e lights at e living room etc etc... then i walk out to off e lights and faster go in my room and lie down on my bed.
E feeling is like there are many things inside e chest n lung, cannot breathe, blacking out slowly.. wanted to shout for my mom de, but i stop my mouth, and i prayed
'God, Please take me away if you allow.. Please take me away, to be in your heaven, to be by your side. Please take me away tonight...'
But in e end he didn't.. sign...
I was telling brenda, how i wish i don't have to live anymore.
I was thinking, if i ever have a chance to go into coma, i don't think i'll have the will to wake up.
iSophia posted @11:15 AM & welcomes u to visit here again
iSophia
♥Christian
♥Chief Events Officer (CEO)of MisChie7s
♥Likes to watch tv
♥Likes to listen to 933
♥Don't like to spend on clothes or shopping
♥Likes to share all e gd news to everyone
♥Doesn't like to be late
♥has a VERY GOOD temper
♥collects nice bottles
♥Likes to try exciting themepark games
♥a DJ in mandarin radio station
♥to learn drum
♥be able to born & live in 台灣
♥to go to San Franciso & visit Charmed's mansion
♥to try bungie jump from top of e mountain
♥live a few yrs in different countries
♥hav my own condo,with wad i wan
♥hav my own car
